Transitions and change

Why hello there!


It has been almost a year since my last post, and all I can think of is: "Where did time go?"
Things have definitely changed a lot since, and I am very excited to write.

As you can see from social media posts, I am slowly seeing the light out of the tunnel as I transition from being a student to a teacher, from a fiancée to a wife, from living with my parents to having my own home, from having one pet to two pets, and so on.

Things that I used to consider extremely important, and preoccupying aren't so anymore. I have taken some risks, and some decisions have shaped the person that I am as of today.
For instance, my fiancé and I decided to find a smaller home church, and it has been a true blessing.
Also I decided to step back from jail ministry for the rest of this year. Earlier this year, God had reminded me about something that He had asked me when I went to Tanzania last year: To get my house in order first!

I have been focusing on new things, and making new friends. The stories and different backgrounds are quite inspiring. I have changed a lot as a believer.

I am leaving this very ambiguous, and for your own exploration. Don't get me wrong, I still love my Lord and Savior, I believe in His word, though I do recognize I should be reading it more.
There are many things that I was sort of bound to, a leash of different belief systems woven throughout the years by many believers around me, and I found it devastating, quite hysterical, contradictory, hypocritical, dull, and I somehow I never fit in.

Now I am a grown woman, with different approaches and experiences. A brand new drive, focus, and totally refined.
So what happened? You might ask.

I let go of my fear of judgement, the continuous reminder that God is ready to strike you kind of mentality, this of course taught by many believers around me. I was only 15 when I gave my life to the Lord, so the older folk taught me all kinds of crazy stuff. I lived not in fear, but in constant guilt and regret.

Fast forward I realized a few things: You are going to heaven, if you accept, believe, and confess/repent of your sins before Jesus. But there is more!

You can still have a fun life, enjoy the blessings of being alive! People would die to have what you've got.

Don't let fear & guilt take over you! Although there are times God would be reminding you to stop doing something that isn't pleasing before his eyes, and that could change the course of your life forever!

Decisions, decisions right!? A debatable case for the rest of our lives it is to make a wild decision that involves your future, and ultimately your eternity.

Am I speaking to someone tonight? Okay good, I knew it wasn't in vain that I am losing sleep :)


In his Name,


KC